Just a few more things...

Hey Ashi Mommy.

Sleep a me.

Popsick a me.

Tick our backs.

We go hiking.

Icky Brown Red Claw Dinosaur.

AIR GUITAR!

Look a me!

My going to work.

A few of my favorite things....

Dear Jonah,
Your language is exploding right now.  You are learning so fast that I afraid I will forget some of my favorite things that you say right now.

Lava la SO much.. ( I love you SO much). 

That big (whatever it is) Right Here.

Tick Back

Sips Tops (Triceratops)

Peter's NOT sick.

Bi bi bi horn big horn sheep.

This car's going grandma's house.

Like a scone! (Said in a deep raspy voice while singing "I will wait, I will wait for you.." 

I NEED a cookie.

I NEED a popsick.

I NEED an adult drink...

My not a baby, my Jonah BOY!

It's a dinosaur bone.

My can do it! 

I need food in my stomach. 

Glass of mulk. Buy more mulk at the store.

Dear Jonah,
We left our home in Moab and moved to Safford, Arizona. There has been a lot of things about moving that have been really difficult, stressful, and hard. We love Moab and our family and friends there and we loved being so close to all of our family and friends just a few hours away. We had to move all of our stuff and pack and clean with you and baby Leo. But the hardest part was taking you away from our families. We will visit as much as we can and hopefully they will come here too, but it was heartbreaking and it breaks my heart every time you tell someone to "get out" when we are face timing or to "get out of the show and come play" when we are talking to them on the computer. But you are doing such a good job adjusting to your new home and making new friends.

But I cannot even count how many times we have had to watch this so you can see Ty Ty.

Valentine Haiku to my Jonah boy....

Watching you with awe,

You in awe of everything,

Both beautiful things. 

gone, scary, shark, no no no, oh no, uh oh, bye bye, tuk, mama, dad, goose, dog, goat,  car, ow, eyes,

Dear Jonah,
You have had so many new developments lately... It seems like everyday you do something new and delightful.  Besides all of your new words, you are also doing some new and hilarious things.  You love animals and animal books. When we are reading animal books, you make all the animal sounds and then you pat your leg to call them to you, like you do with Tuk. You also love to make everything kiss... the llama kisses the giraffe, I kiss the turtle, the dinosaurs kiss, the cars kiss.... And we love to give all the toys pretend food and you say.. "num, num." But I think my favorite new development is your newly found empathy.  We first noticed it when you were watching Nemo. You kept running out during the "scar-wa" parts when the shark would chase the fish. But it has moved beyond you feeling scared to all kinds of emotions.  You can sense when characters are sad, sometimes you even cry with them.  When they are excited or happy, you smile and look at us. It melts my heart.  But it goes even beyond that.  I know that kids pick up on their parent's emotions, but when it comes to the two of us, it's almost scary. If you are asleep and I am upset... you wake up and cry. Sometimes dad tries to calm me down so you will stay asleep. Even if I am whispering.. you still seem to sense it somehow.  I have never had to keep myself and my feelings so much in check.  I can almost guarantee that you are feeling whatever I am feeling. It has been a refining and edifying experience.  Tonight while I was laying by you, I was focusing to bring my anxiety down and to find peace so you could fall asleep. Then I started thinking... "is this my anxiety, or Jonah's?" Either way, I felt I could help us move through it. But it has changed my way of thinking about emotions... like they are their own entity... and we never really know where or who the source is until we take sometime to self reflect. But I love that we can sense what another person is feeling, especially if we are emotionally close to that person. It makes it so we don't have to live our emotional lives alone.  I especially love that the two of us can help each other this way. My little Pisces... ruled by emotion. :)

Dear Jonah,
I made this movie for a few of my friends at Pacifica right around the time you were born. I am thinking right before you were born. Every time I watch it, I get choked up. I sent it to a few of my friends in a FaceBook message. Melissa wrote back and said she was weirdly crying while watching this and eating a bowl of cereal. :).  I will never forget finding out about you. I was at my very last week of school in Carpinteria, California. That Friday we had a ritual at the beach with the first years. We made two lines and everyone had to walk down between the lines blindfolded while we whispered messages of love into their ears. I cannot help but compare that to the birthing process... going blindly, hoping for, needing, and hearing messages from love until you are welcomed at the end of the tunnel.  After the ritual we all went to a bar in downtown Santa Barbara called the Marque. I snuck away and bought a test at the closest CVR. I talked to my friends for a while. Then I found out about you. I ran outside and called dad. Almost a year later after writing a thesis and having you, we went back to California for graduation and got our picture under the sign at the bar. I love you, Jonah baby.